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HI :)
okay, didnt blog for a long time, but decided to blog randomly.
and im here to vent some emotions.
firstly, studies.
my mum just kept nagging at me to study. yes, i know i need to study cause O's is just months away. but cant she see im abit busy for this month. i'll be super free after chinese new year, and i really will study okay. just really wish she understands more u know.
i failed my physics DT. i failed SA1/2 physics too so, dropping physics. i think its going to help me to concentrate more since i got 1 less subject to worry about. and yet again, my mum scolded me for failing and dropping physics. really. why force something when u really cant do it. stop pressurizing me already. im stressing out myself, and now u adding more stress. let me relax can.
second, guys;love?
i didnt mean to give wrong idea or false hopes to someone ok. im just being abit more friendly to him cause he's cute. and i really dont want to go into anymore relationships. its like hell when my parents know, plus O's this year. i really dont want anything to cause more problems with my relationship with my mum and affects my studies. im sorry if i did give any false hopes.
not going to mention the other problem. its been 2 years, so i dont care already.
thrid, cny dance.
the dance is making me crazy. we are near finish but then the problem is the actions.. and maybe also the dancers. maybe me. maybe i shouldnt have choose this dance from the beginning. but im serious. why keep 'complaining' that the music it too fast, why cant u just think that u are just dancing too slowly? why complain that the actions are too hard. u can try to think yourself to make the step easier for yourself right. life isnt easy u know. its not always spoon feed to you. stop slacking already. u been missing the entiring holiday's practice and u expect to still play during dance time. be serious. i dont mind kicking u out of this dance, since we dont need so many people to dance anyway... i really want the dance to be at a standard where all our teachers expected us to be. its our last performance as chinese dance after all this it will be dance society already. teacher and going through the steps with u people isnt easy, cant u just make me, nette, and sf s' life easier abit by really concentrating and listening? i really appreciate it. we are left with 2 practices and 1 rehearsal. just endure abit more and get through with this together as chinese dance okay.
you're not the only one who cant handle this, so stop acting like you are breaking down already be strong.
when 2 lovers can stay as friends, its either they are still in love or they were never in love with each other.
false hopes, i know how that feels. sorry.
okay, didnt blog for a long time, but decided to blog randomly.
and im here to vent some emotions.
firstly, studies.
my mum just kept nagging at me to study. yes, i know i need to study cause O's is just months away. but cant she see im abit busy for this month. i'll be super free after chinese new year, and i really will study okay. just really wish she understands more u know.
i failed my physics DT. i failed SA1/2 physics too so, dropping physics. i think its going to help me to concentrate more since i got 1 less subject to worry about. and yet again, my mum scolded me for failing and dropping physics. really. why force something when u really cant do it. stop pressurizing me already. im stressing out myself, and now u adding more stress. let me relax can.
second, guys;love?
i didnt mean to give wrong idea or false hopes to someone ok. im just being abit more friendly to him cause he's cute. and i really dont want to go into anymore relationships. its like hell when my parents know, plus O's this year. i really dont want anything to cause more problems with my relationship with my mum and affects my studies. im sorry if i did give any false hopes.
not going to mention the other problem. its been 2 years, so i dont care already.
thrid, cny dance.
the dance is making me crazy. we are near finish but then the problem is the actions.. and maybe also the dancers. maybe me. maybe i shouldnt have choose this dance from the beginning. but im serious. why keep 'complaining' that the music it too fast, why cant u just think that u are just dancing too slowly? why complain that the actions are too hard. u can try to think yourself to make the step easier for yourself right. life isnt easy u know. its not always spoon feed to you. stop slacking already. u been missing the entiring holiday's practice and u expect to still play during dance time. be serious. i dont mind kicking u out of this dance, since we dont need so many people to dance anyway... i really want the dance to be at a standard where all our teachers expected us to be. its our last performance as chinese dance after all this it will be dance society already. teacher and going through the steps with u people isnt easy, cant u just make me, nette, and sf s' life easier abit by really concentrating and listening? i really appreciate it. we are left with 2 practices and 1 rehearsal. just endure abit more and get through with this together as chinese dance okay.
you're not the only one who cant handle this, so stop acting like you are breaking down already be strong.
false hopes, i know how that feels. sorry.
